Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Trials and Exhaustion

Potsdam, Germany
09:12 pm
Icy cold

Hello,

my first 2 weeks of work as a nurse are behind me and I am beyond exhausted. It was planned that I was going to be the 4th nurse on the ward, but one of my colleagues got sick and I was thrown into the cold water. First week mostly 9 children to take care of, 5 of them babies who have to be fed at the same time. I managed. Don’t ask me how, but I did. Everyday after work I went home, thinking “Did I do the right things? Did I give every medication, right time, right dosage and right patient? “.

It is very strenuous and makes my emotion go on a roller coaster. After I finish the next 10 days of working I will go on a short vacation to get some strength, gather some energy and do some organizing, concerning my thoughts.

Thanks a lot to my colleagues for the patience, open ear and mind, as well as the help that I was provided with in the last 2 weeks.

My roommate was able to get a job now, too. She did a lot of cleaning and organizing at my apartment, which I am thankful for, but she was also exhausted by not being able to really work. I am able to comprehend her feelings, because I have been in a similar situation for 3 months.

Sandra needs to work, to be with children and show what she can do best. Good luck to her.

I will fall into bed in a couple of minutes, because I will be working 4 early shifts at the ER, which usually is tough, but lots of fun.





Night,
Rea