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California Dreams
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Bronchitis, Antibiotic and Hallmark
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Story To Be Told
Berlin, Germany
Cold autumn day
07:00 pm
Hello Readers,
Many of you know about this already, but I feel like writing it down.
12 years ago, during the times of AOL, I contacted a young American to ask about the life of a teenager in the States. School, hobbies and family. He was willing and answered all my questions. I thanked him and logged off. We talked again and again and slowly a friendship began. His name was Victor, he lived in California. A short time after, I went to the States, even to California, but was too afraid to loose the precious friendship we had build, so we didn't meet at that time.
He would sometimes send a package, with sweets (I didn't even remember telling him that I like Rice Krispy Treats). His mom once send me a scarf for my birthday, hand knitted.
Often we didn't talk for weeks, but just when it felt right, both of us were online.
Now, after a 12 year waiting period, he finally came to visit.
And no, it wasn't like in the movie: seeing each other at the airport, eyes meeting, falling into each other’s arms and boom.
He missed his flight, we missed each other, his bag was lost, I had to work the first 4 nights and had to get my male cat *fixed*. But it turned out alright. We fit. Very well. We love to kiss, especially each other. Talking is a big part of it as well. Just going on long walks. Sitting on park benches and breathing.
He loves how I smell, that I have a sense of humor and that I am a smart and independent woman.
I love his sarcasm, the way he enjoys food and how soft his touch is.
How the story ends, you ask. It doesn't. We both decided to giv
e us a big try. Yes, I know, but it's 9096,56 km between the two of you. So what. Some people sleep next to each other and no plane can bridge the distance between them. What could I possibly loose? It feels right.
In April I will fly to the States. Meet his familia. I am very much looking forward to that.
Much love to all of you.
Good night

Sunday, April 10, 2011
Uncertainties
Friday, March 04, 2011
Cooking
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Winter Wonderland
Potsdam, Germany
06:00pm
Winter is here
Hey guys,
I am sorry for not blogging for quite some time.
This year has been filled with joy and changes.
For those who don’t know yet, I will be moving back to Berlin by the end of January 2011 because I was able to get a new job. I will be working at the German Heart Center in Berlin as a so called jumper. Meaning I will be worked into 3 different wards (Children’s ICU, Children’s IMC and ICU).
I am very much excited about it, though also a bit sad to leave my current work family. It amazed me how many people actually are wishing me all the best, that I’ll be missed and not to forget them. The current pediatric nursing class stepped up to me, thanked me and wished me well with a hand-made card. I was pretty much close to tears. Some parents also thanked me. It is amazing how many people you touch – I feel so grateful that there are so many amazing people in my life.
My new apartment will be one floor underneath her apartment. I am so excited!
A couple of month ago I started to learn German sign language. This has interested me for a long time. When I was a kid I met my great, great uncle Günther, who had lost his hearing when he was a child. He was able to sign some and taught me. During the next year I helped him with official visits, banking problems and translated as much as I could. He got distant around fall, I confronted him and he told me off very harshly. So, we turned away. I’ve regretted that ever since. He’d been pushing us away because he didn’t want us to hurt too much when he died. He killed himself that December.
Ever since then I wanted to learn sign language, some of my ambition was guilt I guess. I want to be able to sign, to be able to communicate. Not just a little but a lot. The other part of it is to learn, to be able to communicate with many more people. Through the course I have met 3 more amazing people. One of them is Daniel, our teacher. Daniel is deaf, though able to speak and lip read. He is very smart and has a wicked sense of humor. As you might have noticed, I am quite taken with him.
Yesterday was my annually Christmas party. A lot of friends have been there, as well as my mom and her partner. The food was good, the company even better. This really is what Christmas is all about. Being with friends and family, spreading love and joy.
Please don’t forget to remember those who have no family or friends or joy at Christmas. Go out gift a homeless with a hot tea and a sandwich, donate clothes or money, call a friend that you haven’t contacted for a while, if you believe in a God, pray for those in need. Sometimes all it takes is to gift someone with a smile.
I wish all of you a joyous Christmas season. Arrive safely in the New Year. Stay healthy. Find love, give love.
Yours,
Andrea
Sunday, August 08, 2010
Family
08:00 pm
Warm, sun is leaving
I have decided to let the feelings settle.You asked for more and here it is.
A couple of weeks ago I visited my great aunt in Teschendorf, which is a small village close to Berlin. I used to spend summers here with my great grand ma. A lot has changed, but some things stay the same. Like the old wooded gate to the barn.


Much love,
Saturday, August 07, 2010
Friend or Foe
10:00pm
Warm with a touch of cold
I know. It's been long.
In the last couple of month I felt like I distanced myself from my friends here, specially those in Berlin.
Like I had somewhat changed. Maybe became too arrogant or too self absorbed.
Most I haven't seen since February. Though some I have seen regularly.
With most I haven't even talked on the phone, unless one needed something from me.
Tonight I have realized, yes, I have changed, and no I haven't.
Changed in so far that I stopped tolerating some behavior, I don't run and try to catch people which don't really seem interested in keeping my friendship. Yes, in these aspects I am colder.
I am still the same with staying close to those I love, that I am able to appreciate and be appreciated in return.
You are probably wondering why I am posting this, today, after nearly not blogging for a year, because I was severely disappointed by a person I considered a close friend. He acted like an idiot and not only hurt the other persons feelings, but mine (and some other people's), too.
I won't tolerate that. I won't accept it.
Much love nevertheless, Andrea
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Back to basics
Here I am sitting on my couch, watching yet one more romantic movie and wonder about what is important in life. What do you need to be happy? Money? Some person to spend the rest of your life with? The perfect job?
I think that in order to be happy, you need to start at your own door. When you look in the mirror every morning, do you see how beautiful you are? Are you able to see beyond the lines in your face, your bushy hair and crooked teeth? Because if you’re not, how do you expect someone else to accept you for whom you are.
Getting dressed is one more thing. If you want to look good, dress comfortable and yet exclusively, not for anyone else but for your own *zing*. If you feel attractive, others will be able to see that spring in your step, that little bit of sunshine in your eyes, despite the heavy rain.
Do not forget to look at other people. You probably have your plate full, but can one little smile hurt? No, it cannot. When you do it for the first time, it might feel funny, but the more often you simply smile at people, the easier it will be. And it will not just ease your worry lines, but brighten up somebody else’s day.
Go at your day not like you have to, but like you want to. There are so many people who don’t have a job, who are barely able to live and here we are complaining about no milk for our coffee or lousy service. A waitress is rude to you? Give her that extra smile, the one that says “I know you are having a really shi**y day and I understand.”
One last piece of advice for today: Be thankful for every little thing in your life.
So long,
Andrea
Monday, July 13, 2009
In Sickness and Health
09:00pm
Nice warm and sunny
Hi!
Okay,
I admit (once more) that I haven't blogged in awhile...
Well, I work and still do my sport.
At the moment I have a bad bronchitis (once again), but despite that am planning to drive to Hannover tomorrow (including all my meds in my luggage).
Patty will join me and if I am better, we'll drive to Jana's place in Saturday evening for it is lil' Laura's first Bday!!!
Harry Potter is coming out this weekend and I am very excited, though I fear that I will have to see it German first - argh - because Hannover will only show it in English from next week on. Life sucks :-).
Other than that ... oh, I bought a Scooter and I love it very much!! It's fun riding it, easier to find a parking spot and navigate in Rush hour.
Mel and two friends visited me for a weekend. She was staying in Austria for a couple of weeks to study art there. We had a power sightseeing weekend:
- pick up 7am Potsdam main station on Friday
- Hospital to get some meds for an eye infection
- Home for breakfast and a short nap
- off to Sansoussi for an extended tour of the castle and the gardens
- Leave the girls downtown to get lunch and home without me, because I needed to work - argh
- Home by 10:30pm, DVD laughs and bed
- Saturday morning get up at 5:30am, shower, breakfast with the girls and off to Berlin
- Victory statue, Reichstag, Brandenburger Gate, Checkpoint Charlie and lunch, Alexander Place and wall exhibit, Körperwelten exhibit, East Side Gallery
- Dinner and party date at Patty's
- Off home by 10:30pm, talk, bed
- up by 8am, off to the train station
- Bye girls!
It was so much fun and I so miss these girls!
That's all folks,
Nighty night
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
Italy here I am
11:00pm
Warm with a light sea breeze
Ciao,
I am feeling very well. My vacation in Italy started and I am so enjoying myself. We, mom and her bf, took off on Friday and drove down to the Bodensee, where we stayed for 1 night at an old pension. After a filling breakfast we drove down to Imperia, Italy.
We are currently staying at Villa Giada, a holiday park, with cozy apartments, 2 pools and the beautiful view towards the Mediterranean Sea (except for the autostrada).
We spend the first day just relaxing at the pool and enjoying a walk down the coast line. Imperia has one of those very old Gelaterias, where the ice cream is handmade and heavenly!
On Monday we drove to Genova down the SP1, which is the road down the coast. Lovely scenery, fresh ocean air. We took a detour (unplanned) through the mountains, which I loved (small Italian villages and a lovely chapel in the middle of the small road), mom didn’t. Genova is a huge Italian city (35km along the Sea) and it took us a while to find the aquarium but when we did, whoa. It’s right at the Antique port.
Yesterday, the weather was awesome, lots of sun, light sea breeze. I spend some hours at the pool, napping under a big umbrella, catching up on my reading and cooling down from time to time.
Another 1 ½ weeks of rest and recreation, trip to Nizza, go to the market, more walking practice in the mountains and lots of naps.
Have a marvelous week,
Love,
Andrea
Monday, April 06, 2009
Work, Sports and Migrain
10:30pm
Nice Spring night
Hi folks,
Well, I am good. There's a lot of extra work at the moment, because of one 2 long term sick colleagues. One of them is not coming back and we'll get a new nurse (around May 15th), till then work, work, work.
The weather turned out to be awesome the last couple of days. Lots of sun and a nice spring wind! Spend most of my spare time outside.
Finally, I found a chandelier for my living room! Lamp and candle holder all in one! After some troubles installing it I finally am able to use it!
I managed to get home, but it was pretty stupid of me to risk my health like that and others too. After 4 hours of sleep I am kinda better. Still have an aura, but late shift tomorrow and need to sleep now.
I send my love out to all of you!
Rea
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Life in General
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Friday, February 27, 2009
Spring feelings and air
0830pm
Spring is in the air
Hellu,
I am back in Potsdam from a week long break.
Last weekend I was at Lea’s birthday party at Patty’s new apartment. Yep, he moved and got an apartment with his brother. I like the area he lives in – lots of world cuisine (Thai, Indian, Chinese, and Italian) and the “BIOriental” market is right around the corner. Yay!
Julia, a new colleague of mine from Hamburg, celebrated her “finally here”-party at the same night. Kai and I spend 2 hours at her new apartment – it’s fabulous! 4 rooms, high walls, a “to live in” bathroom!
The following Monday I was on my way to Jana in the Harz Mountains. The 3 days were spent talking, laughing, cuddling with baby Laura and just letting my soul ease. Here some pictures. Laura is now 7 month and a very lively toddler – the family will have to secure the house when she starts walking!
On Wednesday, we climbed the Hausberg. Despite me not having hiked for some time, there was snow and ice (partially melted) and Laura in the stroller to push up the mountain. Half way there we stopped and looked over the small town, listened to the first birds (singing of spring to come) and simply enjoyed being there.
Yesterday, I drove up to Hanover to visit a friend and patient of mine. He has CF and is waiting for a new lung transplant. We played some DS (Mario kart) and I accompanied him to some diagnostic. It makes me realize how precious our health is and how fortunate I am to have healthy lungs. Those who do believe in a God or higher being, please pray for him.
Afterwards I drove to Gifhorn to visit my great aunt Traute and her friend Gert. It was his birthday and we had a lovely evening. The guests were talkative and I enjoyed the company of some very smart and cultivated people.
Well, now I am back and facing a weekend of sports, work, English class and guess what – more work. But I really was able to finally breathe again.
Much love,
Rea
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Not so bad after all
just a quick note on my grabby day. First of all, I am still fine and no I am not suicidal, just having a bad hair day.
And it turns out that it wasn't all that bad, 'cause I ended up having dinner with a smart guy and pretty good company while watching 2 pretty awesome movies all tugged in on my couch.
Much Love,
Rea
P.S.: A shy person sometimes needs a nudge into the right direction.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Feeling Low
I am feeling pretty sad and kind depressed today. This was brought on by a song I listened to. It is so beautiful and it just struck me in the chest.
I am anxious to leave Germany. The day I finally leave will be one of the happiest days of my life. The people around me are depressing themselves, looking grim, looking hopeless and smiling at a complete stranger (which is what I usually do) makes them look at you like you’re a nut case.
I am also tired of being alone and terribly afraid of growing old all by myself without having felt real love. Yes, I have loved and been loved, though mostly by friends and family. There are days that this isn’t enough.
I miss having someone to meet with to talk English. Just chat, have a cup of coffee and listen to what is going on in their life. There are friends that live in Europe and that I can call on the phone, but you know it’s not the same. I want to hold Chris’s baby, dance with Eliza, share a joke with Sonya and Colleen over a homemade salad and watch Renu in action.
Its unsatisfying knowing that money is keeping me from doing that. Have you ever imagined what it would be to live without money? I know, that some people think that it would give all those lazy butts a reason to stay home and do nothing. But I think about unlimited traveling. About those people that crave an education so badly, but either can’t afford it or are not allowed one because of the color of their skin or maybe the way they look. And yes, prejudice is still going on nowadays. Sometimes stronger than ever. Sorry, back to topic. I would work. Because I love what I am doing. And I do know that there are millions of people thinking the same way. What a dream.
I wish on every shooting star that people’s dreams come true. That my dreams come true.
Rea
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
New Year's and Resolutions (or not)
08:30pm
Icy!
Heya.
It’s winter in Potsdam and I love it!! J
We have really cold days, though most with a lot of winter sun and it’s lovely going for walks.
When I returned from Mom and Dad’s my town was covered in snow.
What happened since Christmas?
I worked (no surprise there), though because my colleagues helped I was able to get off one night early. The next days were spent at Dad’s place with long visits with Mom.
It felt really good to be out there – fresh air, lots of quiet and peace. On my birthday I had plans to go to a spa, but it was too expensive and didn’t offer what I wanted. So instead, I spent the day at Mom’s, and we went to the movies in the evening. Australia is an amazing movie, not just for Hugh Jackman with no shirt and being wet, but for a great story and three awesome actors.
New Year’s eve, I stayed at Dad’s neighbors’, who have been friends with me for a long time. After preparing a small buffet, we ate and played activity.
By midnight we (my friends, Dad and his girlfriend Inge) gathered at the frozen lake and watched the fireworks.
Dad’s girlfriend has a dog, whose name is Pongo, he’s a Dalmatian half-breed. I so love this dog. Pongo is huge, but such a teddy bear.
After returning to Potsdam, I started learning for my NCLEX RN. It’s a lot of material to cover and I will need more than just the 4 weeks I planned. But I am keeping it up.
My Body transformer study is over. I didn’t lose weight, but lost girth (stomach and hip), yay! So I decided to keep it up for 1 year once a week.
Well, I guess that’s it for now.
Much love to all of you!
Andrea
Monday, December 22, 2008
Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
08:00 pm
Stormy
Merry Christmas to each and every one of you,
It's been a busy month.
We had a Thanksgiving Dinner. This year it was a very small gathering of friends but nevertheless very enjoyable. My godson Max and his family visited and he is such a sunshine.
Besides delicious food, I was busy building houses with wood bricks that I had bought for the little guy. Every day I am thankful for friends that share their love with everyone.
Then the weekend of the annual pediatric ward Christmas party came. I worked late shift that Friday, but drove to the party afterwards with a friend. It's lovely every year: loads of home-made food, nice drinks, creamy desserts, nice conversations and plan making for the annual summer party.
I drove 2 friends home and went to bed by 3am. Got up by 8 and started preparing for my Christmas party at home. Patty had stayed at my place and I kicked him out of bed by the time I got back from Christmas shopping. I cleaned, made Christmas cookies, prepared the turkey and set up the tree.
By 3pm, my mom and her boyfriend arrived with homemade waffles and ice cream for coffee.
We played games, welcomed the other guests,
exchanged gifts and prepared the tables for the big feast.
The food was delicious
as was the dessert (white and brown mousse au chocolate). Some left, others arrived and we did "Stehrumchen". The night ended with a comfy gathering in front of the TV watching "Three hazelnuts for Cinderella" - a classic in Germany.
On Sunday, we got out of bed by 9,
cleaned up a bit and had a nice breakfast. Jana, Steffen and little Laura left for home and shortly after Mom, Henry, Sis, Sandra, Anja and I left for Chemnitz. The Christmas Market there is very nice, though it was more crowded and we were all so beat from the day before so we just stayed a couple of hours.
You can guess that by Monday I was very happy but exhausted to the bone. Thank goodness I had the day off.
The rest of the week was filled with loads of work, very unsatisfying because we were not enough nurses.
I will have nightshift at Christmas, but will get comfy at work.
To all my big family (by blood and by heart) - I love you and wish you all the best and a very Merry Christmas!
Andrea